New Perspective

As Bekah nears closer to the first year mark, I can almost feel myself coming out of the fog I must have been in for the past couple of years. My goal has been to nurse Bekah until her first Birthday, which is in April, so the end is in sight. For the past 5 years, I have either been nursing and/or pregnant, and soon I will be altogether neither! This is not to say I haven't enjoyed the stages my babies are/were in or the processes I've gone through, but I am ready to have my body back (completely) so that I can feel stronger and focus on more things. I am beginning to feel the need to meet new people and become more active outside my home. I am making plans to enjoy some time to myself or to have a date with my husband. I have lost most of my "baby weight," but am looking foward trying to get my body "fit" again. And I have begun to set up playdates as well, with other moms and kids.

I enjoy this age that Bekah is (nearly 10 months), because I feel that I am able to maneuver a bit easier throughout the day. I am beginning to enjoy these times even more now. And when I'm not focused on myself, my eyes seem to be open to the needs of those around me. Recently I have had some neat opportunities to have conversations with new people or discover small ways that I can reach out to another. And this brings me great joy and purpose. I still struggle with the fact that I don't know what I'll do with myself when all three of my babies start school. I want to feel like I have a plan. But for now I'll just imagine that I have limitless OPPORTUNITY!